Sometimes...

After months of not updating,finally im back here again in my small lil corner to throw out whteva i've been facing recently~Last week was a struggling life with my director and a french guy...da whoeva from Gulf Airways...n this week i need to face another few problemz~~WHY WHY WHY Sometimes things jz dont go da way we want?? i have lotsa sometimes in my mind now :

Sometimes, i really dunno should i just giv up on my dreamjob coz im so tired of chasing it anymore...Gosh~~can any1 giv me an answer?

Sometimes, i really dunno should i continue working in this current company as it is giving me so many problems...

Sometimes, i really feel so tired of facing everything all by myself :(

Sometimes, i feel so tired...it makes me feel like having sum1 bside me to share with me all my problems

Sometimes, im just so scare to think of having any commitment...but...haih....just skip this part~

Sometimes, things just dont go as smooth as i wish...

Sometimes,i feel my life is so messed up just bcoz im so obssesed with my dreamjob...when only i can get a stable lifestyle?

Sometimes, i just feel so tired of everything that keep on buzzing in my mind.....

sigh...duno wht should i write ade....signing off xoxo Ms.D

Jisun – What Should I Do Lyrics

I have found out this Korean song lyrics n itz so meaningful...love this song when the 1st time i heard in d very famous Korean Meteor Garden Drama...da actual name of the drama is actually Boys Over Flower(BOF)...this song's lyrics actually sing out exactly how's my heart feel this few months ... datz y i fall so deeply with this song~ Here is the translated english version of this korean song :

Jisun – What Should I Do Lyrics

You ask me how my day was as if it is same everyday
I say Im okay but you really dont know how I feel
Do you think i’ll be okay without you?
Are you okay without me?
The world without you is so hard that I blame myself for still breathing.
What should I do? Even now, I live each painful days because of your words
Tell me if this is a bad thing to do
Are you living each day painfully like I am?
You and me
Are we too late? Do we not have a chance?
I still think about you and you might know this
Finally is it this? Are we going to end like this? Is it okay with you?
I dont think I can do it. The love I find with you, I wont find it anywhere even if I die.
What should I do? If it isnt you no one else can hold my heart
Please hold me. And you know that even though the whole world tries to
No one can erase your memories. So please hold me
What should I do? Even now, I live each painful days because of your words
Tell me if this is a bad thing to do
Are you living each day painfully like I am?
You and me
Is it too late? Do we not have a chance?
But me, I still think about you, and you might not know.

If u found this song lyrics is quite meaningful n u wanna listen...can visit this link
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pF9uBAYxL0c

Guess...im done introducing this song...Sign Off...xoxo Ms.D

My Idol Since The First Time He Walked In To Entertainment World : Mr Wilber Pan Wei Bo

Guess afta seeing the title of this post u guys will knw wht im gonna talk about...Yeah! Is him the guy dat i adored so so much ever since the first time he caught my attention in his 1st ever video clip " pi hu man pu "So in love with his style...his voices really able to reach my heart n soul...n his smile will really meltz my hearts...by seeing him, all my sadness will b gone....K,let da pic do da talking...i betta stop my nonsense~ Here are those pics i got when he came to Msia laz weekend...FYI, i even went to KLIA juz to see him walk out from the arrival hall to his car (white Alphard) 1st time c him so so closed...he even stopped in front of me n talk 2 da gal bside me...make my heart jump so so fast~Haha...and afta that we 4llow his car till Kuchai Lama n thn we continued our journey to Mines coz there's a press conference and 1 of the fanz club member won the tix from MyFM n can bring 1 friend along n guess wht...she bring me in!! i was so excited as there's only 9 fanz there n we got 2 c him so so close!! afta the press conferences, we rush to New Era Uni in Kajang and attended his laz session of the day~~ His performances was so so great!! his dancing skills...wow!! bravo!! LOVE HIM SO SO MUCH~

On sat i not able to 4llow all his autography sessions coz i have photo shooting in studio...so afta my photography sessions n had dinner with my family d...i rushed to his autograghy session in The Mines and managed to shake his hand once again and there's a gathering with his in a Karaoke room!! Gosh...see him so closed again~! Keke!! really had a happy n memorable weekend meeting him!!



Took a pics with his permanent dancers...see them in few of his mv...Keke

He's so so handsome!!

She's one of the committee in Wilber Msia Fanz Club...and she also won from MYFM and bcome Wilber personal Secretary during his tour in Msia.

New Fanz club member i met there...He's kinda friendly~

Will singing with all his feeling~!

He spotted me!!

Gosh...Love him so so much~

Wilber is trying 2 listen the questions being asked by the reporters~

He's Looking at my side~!! Keke

Cutest smile i ever see in this world~!

He's just soOOOoOo cute!

Posing the "7" Style

Posing for all the press to take his pics...so freaking CUTE~~

During the press conferences

He is in this Alphard!! Sitting at the last row!

He was just standing right in front of me!! so unblievable!

This is the moment i saw him when he walked out from the arrival hall.

DIsappointment~

Out of sudden feel like blogging after so long never update my blog~i guess most of you should knw wht im gonna write about in this post once u look at da title. Today woke up as usual...but da mood is exactly the same as the wheather now~cloudy n dark~feel so not in the mood ever since last nite i received the call from Airasia~I failed in my cabin attendant interview and only manage to get in KIV (Keep In View) status and they wanted to offered me ground position which i am not interested in~was so so disappointed when the moment i heard that...and the worst part is the guy told me u didnt manage to get coz the luck is not there...wht is this?!!?! sigh...life is always ups n downs...so now i guess im in the very bottom point of my life~sad n down n lost...almost all my friends got their job...left me~all alone still wondering around jobless...n also disappointed my mummy so much...i can heard her disappointed voices when i told her i failed in getting the position~here goes my dream job...GONE~! T.T ...rain started to pour heavily outside my window now~~im accompanied by a sad song sang by Wilber Pan and the rain drops sounds~ sOOoOooO disappointed~! What should i go for now?? Life is so meaningless~

Lazy Sunday~

It is a sunday~and today im a lil bit unusual as what i am as always~the Diane that loves to go out. Now,im just enjoying myself in my room all alone with a very comfy XL shirt n a shorts...facing the lappy...surfing the net...boiling my fav series Gossip Girls season2! Plan to go for a nap later on~coz i know tomorrow i will start my busy n tiring weeks~trying to make my mind blank n not think of anything~just wanted to have a wordless sunday and have a peaceful rest~signing off : xoxo Ms.D (copyrighted from gossip girls..Keke)

Smile though your heart is aching

Today has been a very very tiring day for me~ Saturday and i have to wake up 6 in da morning~!! 2 get myself ready for my 1st ever interview and somemore in Manara Public Bank~! So even more stressed up! Went there and met few new friends~ Every1 with their professional looks~Scary~~basically,i felt i did my interview badly...1st interview is always like dat according 2 Chris...LoLz~ After interview go relax 4 a while in some Japanese Dessert Shop in Pavillion...Enjoyed n talked about lotsa things with my bestie~ n went dinner in Hartamas...and finally got back room in a very very tired condition...but suddenly got kinda emo~ eventhough so tired, outta no where got da mood 2 blog~It has been a very tiring week for me this whole week...but dunno why...everynite still miss him so much~~Bo Go Ship Da~~I knw sounds kinda hopeless...it has been quite a while but still cant get him outta my mind...started to feel worry now~dunno i can let it go anot...coz i dun feel like holding on this feeling forever~really afraid that i'll have this feeling with me forever and cant recover anymore!! So,decided to get myself more things 2 do in order to make myself tired till the max..so taken a job from MYC! itz a Digi Roadshow event in few different campus~ will start working on next mon~ Hoping will meet new ppl n get my mind cleared off and go on with my life without missing him~!! haih~~really emo,moody,tired now! Dun understand why i can be so hopeless...till now still missing him so badly...guess he's enjoying his new life and forgotten me d~n im still stuck here...i always scold myself "Diane,you are such a LOSER!!" ....Sob Sob~~ Hope later o sooner i will not nid 2 throw all my sadness in this diary anymore n able to post more happy posts :(

Lost~

Results released d~everything went smooth...and now im so lost dunno what field should i work for...Applied few airlines companies ade...hoping to get my dream job so that i can leave M'sia and fly away from this sad places that full of sad memories~wishing that i can forget everything soon and have my new happy life again...time passes,but those memories between me and him are still so fresh in my mind...almost every nite i'll still dream of him...sigh~painful memories that he left on me still sticking on my mind...hoping i can go on with my life happily like he did~pray hard that 2mrw will be a better day for me! :)

The Cycle of Love

I started to feel that love is no longer real or endless. From what i experienced before...Love is like a cycle, it will never last :( ... it goes this way, when u started to believe that u have found ur true love and started to feel u are on top of the world and u have owned everything that u ever needed...happiness,love,care,your mr.right and u felt in love~and when a relationship started...u will fall deeper and deeper each day...and those happiness will not stay very long~problems started to occurs,things changes,the person u love so much changes and all u can do is try 2 make things work and accept it even though the truth is hurt n sad...u know that it is the only way for u to protect this relationship till the day u cant take it anymore...everything changes..n here comes to the end...heart broken and u r left in da darkness and all u have to do is learn to be strong and stand up again...once u step into a new beginning...a new chapter of ur single life...u have learned to be more matured and stronger and of coz it is even harder 4 u to believe that there's still true love in this world...here comes again guysss that will able to make to blieve again there's true love appeared in this world...and the whole cycle of love begins again...and will end with heart broken again...that's what we called the cycle of love...no forever,no endless love,no true love...there's always an ending~

Sentences that i found interesting during my trip~

During my trip to melacca i found out there are 2 boards with a very meaningful sentences on it..So i captured them down...For those that don't understand chinese words i able to translate it for u guys~

Thanks to those that had cheated on you before because they help you to improved your visions.

Thanks to those that had hurt you before because it will strengthen your heart.

When Can I Cured My Broken Hearted Completely?

Out of no where i have the feel to post another blog. After viewing HIS blog, i started to feel he's no longer the guy that i knew,loved and admired anymore~he'd changed into a stranger that i used to love. Im still missing him badly, Can anyone teach me how to not miss the person u once loved? i feel myself is so hopeless,helpless,useless now. He's not worth a single tears of mine but i juz cant get out of his world, still dreamt about him laz nite which make me woke up in a moody mode...I Miss You~ :(

Im a Newly Single Gal~

Finally,i able to go on with my new single life again eventhough he will still appear in my mind once a while but i believe that time will cured me and i'll start to enjoy my single life again.Now,i started to believe the phase " Once u break up,you are 1 more step closer to your Mr.Right".Nothing much to write in this post...signing off~

What a EMO Day~

Today im kinda emo...i have no idea wht happened,but juz feel dat ever since dat day,everything bcome so meaningless for me,no matter where i go,what i do,who am i with,he juz cant get off of my mind.I dun understand why all these happened to me,no matter how hard i tried to go on with my life,there's still HIM in my mind. It's so painful to miss a person that once belongs to me. I understand that i have to forget him,all the things he have done,all the lies he has said,all the hurts he have left on me. i really hate myself for being such a fool that im still here missing him so badly. Tot sleep will rest my mind from all these painful memories but he came in my dreamland again! in my dream,everyting were so perfect,it makes me dun feel like waking up...and i know once i wake up,i have to face all da fact,all the painful feelings. its so hard for me to pretend im doing so fine in front of everyone...im so tired~~

Finally i started blogging

This is my first blog after so long my buddies ask me 2 blog~Finally i have the mood to create one...hmm~no idea what to write also~this is gonna be my e-diary and i guess every lil things that happened in my life will be reported here~